Prayer of a wayward novice

Dear Brother,

You know well the love I have for You
And Your love cannot be repaid by this wayward disciple
O how I easy it is to forget my vows to serve You and my brothers and sisters;
to be chaste, poor, and obedient like You, our Good Brother
And here I am, trying be like you yet ungrateful for wasting Your gifts
But see my intentions and not my faltering steps
Because I admit that I will always stay as a novice in following You more closely
And You, my Master, are always there to teach me
Let me unlearn the ways where I seek false comfort
and redirect me by being the lamp to my path.
Thank You for being my co-pilgrim, the God-with-us. Amen.

Your little brother,
Allen

Prompt: 2nd year anniversary of my First Profession of Vows